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I want to give women the freedom to grieve, to speak their babies’ names, and to provide insight into those around them on how to best support them as they walk this journey.

I’ve compiled a little list on what we’ve found helpful support-wise in our grief journey. I hope that you find it helpful too.

This week, in honour of Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Day we are honoured to share Heidi's story with you. Heidi is mom to two Earth-side babes, Eleanor and Henry, and one Heaven-side babe, Wunder. She is also the seamstress behind Darling Emma Handmade.

Here is her story.

My coffee press broke. My boobs are leaking. And my baby is dead. For sixteen weeks I grew life inside this womb, only to birth death. Seven times my hormones have been thrown into disarray. Seven times I've seen that little plus sign. Seven times my body has prepared to birth life. I really thought number seven was going to be the lucky one. The one that finally birthed our last living child. Pregnancy number seven. It has to be a sign, doesn't it? I slowly began my last newborn collection. Fingers crossed this was the last time my waist...

I’ve had 5 missed miscarriages.

Five times when my body hasn’t recognized that my babies’ had died

Five times when my womb clung to their stilled hearts begging for resurrection.

I’m not sure one ever gets over that. It changes you.