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Together we weep
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I can still see you there, lying on the bed, covered in a towel.
Lifeless. Breathless.
Your skin was so red, so translucent.
I was so afraid to touch you. Afraid I would break you.
But you were already broken.
Sequoia
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I was convinced this babe was our Sequoia.
The long awaited for one after another late loss.
The harvest after a long winter.
Our final babe to complete our family.
I believed my season had come, that this seed would turn into my Sequoia.
Jesus wept
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Jesus wept. And he still weeps. He weeps over our lost babies. Even though he knows they aren't "lost" at all. He knows the outcome of the story. It doesn't mean he caused it. It doesn't mean he chose for your babies to die. It doesn't mean he's plotting some sick twist where he can bring good out of the pain. He's the author of life, not death. He makes all things new, not dead. And he weeps. He still weeps. This month I want to weep with you; I want to walk alongside you, hold your hand, and hug...
The weight of it all
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The weight of motherhood, the weight of loss, is too heavy to carry on our own.
No one tells you how difficult the baptism into motherhood can be. How heart wrenching, painful and exhausting it can be.
Our first pregnancy was completely "normal", whatever normal means. We had no health issues, no fears of loss, nothing. But it was covered in shame.