josiah+co. Blog

I sat my kids down today and we spoke about George Floyd and Regis Korchinski-Paquet. We talked about how there are good people and bad people in the world, and sometimes bad people will do harmful things to people with skin the colour of theirs.⠀ We talked about how there are good police officers (some being personal friends) and how there are bad police officers who abuse their power.⠀ We talked about why we won’t let them play with toy guns, even brightly coloured nerf ones, because simply put... they don’t have the same privilege as white kids.⠀ We mentioned...

This past week, undoubtedly has been a really heavy week for so many people. My heart is broken for my Black friends and family and the daily realities they face. This problem isn't new, and it's not going away unless we do something.⠀⠀Friends, I’m going to be point blank...⠀ Racism is still alive and rampant, and it’s not just an American problem, and white privilege is very much real even here in Canada. As a white woman, I recognize I have certain privileges my friends and family don’t. I also recognize I may say the wrong thing as I contribute...

We were supposed to have our anatomy scan today. The clinic actually called yesterday to remind me, but what they didn’t know was we lost the babe 5 weeks ago.⠀ Reminders like this always catch me off guard. I’ll think I’m doing ok, and then I realize I’m not... and that’s ok. I spent the afternoon yesterday crying it out to sappy sad music.⠀ I’m trying to let myself feel it, amidst everything else that is going on in our world today, I'm trying to feel it. And it all feels so damn heavy.⠀ People losing babies, mothers dying during...

I’m technically still pregnant. Pregnant with a corpse; a shell of what once was.⠀ My body hasn’t registered our loss yet. She’s just going about her day, oblivious to the reality within her. ⠀ I guess she never got the paperwork.⠀ So I’ll wait with her.⠀ We are waiting and I am fighting for the care I know she needs.⠀ Amidst covid restrictions, and red taped ORs, I’m waiting to find someone who will take us in; someone who will save us the trauma and possibility of bleeding out at home.⠀ The reality is, first trimester loss isn’t ‘just a...