Carried: Navigating grief + joy

We are Strong, We are Still Mothers - A Mother's Day Message

Melissa Sulley Grief Loss Miscarriage Awareness Mother's Day Motherhood Parenting after loss Pregnancy and loss awareness Support

A mother's day message from us to you. We are strong, we are brave, we are Still Mothers.

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Josiah: Remembered Still

Melissa Sulley Grief Miscarriage Miscarriage Awareness Motherhood Parenting after loss Pregnancy and loss awareness Resources Stillbirth Support

4 years ago today I birthed our second born.⠀⠀I didn’t get to leave the hospital with him.⠀⠀I didn’t get to feel his warmth or give him his first bath.⠀⠀I didn’t get to watch him grow or learn to walk or talk or ride a bike.⠀⠀I didn’t even get to whisper goodbye to a listening ear.⠀⠀I walked out empty handed and broken-hearted.⠀⠀Some parents don’t get to parent their second born.⠀⠀They are left to navigate the waters of parenting after loss, of loving and grieving, breathing and dying all at the same time.⠀⠀We don’t get to choose our paths.⠀⠀And to be honest,...

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When loss blindsides you

Melissa Sulley faith Grief Loss Motherhood Support

My father in law passed away the day we landed in Cuba, exactly two weeks ago.

There were no warning signs, no goodbyes. One day he was here; and the next day he was gone.

I’ve become numb to loss. So much so that my mind wouldn’t let me process another loss. My heart has already been broken into so many pieces, I didn’t think there were any pieces left to break. Until I read his obituary.

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Caught in a dance

Melissa Sulley faith Grief Loss Miscarriage Miscarriage Awareness Motherhood Parenting after loss Pregnancy and loss awareness Support

I’m caught in a dance. The dance between life and death, hope and despair. Stuck somewhere between belief and disbelief. Some days I keep it together. I’m strong and full of hope, laughter falling from my lips. Other days I fall apart on the inside. My emotions escape me, my impatience surprises me. And I’m ridden with guilt. The cloud of grief quietly consumes me, but I don’t even know it. I’m a peacemaker. A nine to the tee on the enneagram. I avoid conflict, I run from my inner turmoil. If I’m being honest, I don’t really want to...

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Even still

Melissa Sulley faith Loss Miscarriage Miscarriage Awareness Missed Miscarriage Motherhood Parenting after loss Pregnancy after loss Pregnancy and loss awareness Resources

What has been one of the most painful seasons of my life has also been one of the most joy filled. It’s a bittersweet dichotomy. The beauty alongside the pain. They go hand in hand.

I wouldn’t have Eliyanah without the loss. I wouldn’t have Ezekiel without the shameful journey of pregnancy before marriage. The pain, the shame, the guilt, the questions, I’d do it all over again. A million times over.

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